I am so upset I can even sleep.Someone please?

Well it started 3 yrs ago.I have been inlove with this man for 13 years.We started off and on but never committed. He broke my heart in May of 08 and we didn't talk for 2 months..I tried to move on and he moved to another state.He called me up and told me he wanted to be with me and move me and my 2 kids there and all of us try this family thing.He said he cared a lot for me and he would take care of me and I would never have to work and the kids college was paid for he said it all.Then I took him back because thats what I always wanted.We made it official dating in oct.He acted different this time..called me baby,sweetie etc.I drove to florida for thanksgiving and spent a week.He played with my kids and everything.He said he was coming here for christmas.He said he bought me and the boys gifts.He said he wanted to meet my brothers and my family.Well he comes and goes to his mothers place first and then he called me on the day hes going to come here and says hes sick and hes going to take a nap and he will call me when he gets up and tell me if he feels better.He didn't call me till 6 hrs later and says hes not coming and he thought he said if he was going to come he would call me.I got very upset and within minutes he was telling me he just can't open up to me and hes not over being hurt from a girl 3 yrs back and he would rather be alone and deal with lonely moments then be in a relationship and deal with bad ones..I cried..and doing a crazy love moment..i drove 3 hrs to where he was and stayed with his sister and he still didn't come and talk to me...there is no other woman ..he just said hes scared..and I scare him because I am prefect and I am what he wants...and now its over..I don't get it....how can you build someone up like that and crush it all in one night???I am so upset I can even sleep.Someone please?
you have to let that go, he is not gunna be with you, talk to your friend, you know wat you need to do. get a bakc massage and it willcalm your nerves.I am so upset I can even sleep.Someone please?
girl, think about your kids!!! you don't want a man in you're life that can't seem to decide on things. just do you and your kids. get your life straight by yourself for awhile and then if the right man comes along, you let him in when YOU'RE ready.
leave him be go on. Think about your kids and focous on whats important, Not him.
you know,,,u shldnt rely on other people for your happiness, comfort and security. u should start with urself....alone.Focus on ur kids and ur own life...from there, when everythings going smoothly,,,ul get ur sleep.
I think you should give some time,you deserve more than that..Allow him make up his mind about what he really wants...
He does not want to give up his freedom basically and make a commitment to you. Sometimes guys just dont want that. He is torn with caring for you but also have his freedom. Give him his space but do inform him that you will not wait forever.